Wishing To Have Never Been Born

In this life of limitations, the only real reason to continue onward besides subjective motivation or the potentially illusory evidences pointing towards Christianity and its morality is the unknowability of certain things.  Whether morality exists, what its obligations would consist of, whether there is an afterlife, and whether that afterlife has anything to do with whatever moral obligations exist are all of immense importance here.  Other than moral or other extreme existential issues like an afterlife, all of which reduce to logical truths, there is of course absolutely no reason not to kill oneself.  Even without trials, the mere moral meaninglessness of reality, necessary truths included, would entail that there is no objective basis for pursuing life.

As for suffering, there is always either pain or at least the capacity for pain present in human existence in its current form.  No, this kind of desperation and agony was not present in the Biblical Eden until sin, and they are promised to be removed from New Jerusalem (Revelation 21:1-5).  The likelihood of Christianity being true does not always make life easier to endure in the present except by providing a philosophically consistent and evidentially probable support to keep living.  Trials still come.  This is both logically possible, for the very existence of a conscious mind always brings the possibility that from one cause or another it would eventually experience pain, and it is Biblically emphasized.

Jesus does say that there will be trouble in this world (John 16:33).  Indeed, as asinine as the objection to theism or Christianity is on a logical and moral level since it solely is about emotional dislike, the so-called problem of pain is one of the most distressing things in all of philosophy for many Christians and non-Christians alike.  As I have pointed out before, this even spans rationalists and non-rationalists: no one needs to be particularly intelligent or interested in the nature of reality to feel the pain that can be a part of reality.  If there truly is no pre-conception consciousness for humans, which is entirely unverifiable, the only way to escape both pain and the possibility of it is to cease to exist, including by having never come into being.

Either way, the only way to inherently avoid all pain is to never have been in conscious existence of any kind.  When wishing they had never been born, this is ultimately what people are grappling with even if they make assumptions about the matter.  They experience disappointment, loss, sadness, or pain, and they wish in those moments that they never had a mind which would face these burdens.  What they long for is something like the Sheol of the Bible even if they do not realize what the Bible truly teaches, its logical possibility, or the evidence for it.  They hope for either total nonexistence of the mind or for a dreamless, perceptionless state where there is not even comprehension of reason or the self.  This is what Job desired for during his own great trials (Job 3:11-19).

Since there is not even a guarantee that death will bring release, as there are many logically possible afterlives, some of them far worse than anything in this life, only something like Sheol (Ecclesiastes 9:5-10), the annihilation of the second death (Matthew 10:28, 2 Peter 2:6), or New Jerusalem (again, Revelation 21:1-5) would actually end the suffering in their own ways.  One is temporary nonexistence or soul sleep, one is a permanent death of the soul with no resurrection that follows, and the other is eternal bliss.  In truth, anyone who wants an end to their suffering could only have it through one of these three types of fates.

This is not to say that the Biblical afterlives are true by necessity, only that soul sleep, annihilation, or eternal bliss are the only ways for a being already in existence to find a true escape from despair or mental illness or terror or pain.  The only other way to ensure this would be to have never been not just born, but conceived at all.  Of course, if that has already happened, it has already happened, and no human will can undo past events.  All of us who are born can choose rationality or irrationality, and we can to a limited extent shape our life circumstances in accordance with reason, morality, and personal preferences, but suffering, moral obligations, and the metaphysics of potential afterlives are inseparably tied to the issue of why we should continue to live at all.