The Bible openly features key figures who wish to die, asking God for this as with Moses or wishing they had died at birth as with Job. Regarding the former, Numbers 11:4-17 sees the Israelites, free of their slavery in Egypt, express ungratefulness for their manna and clamor for meat, which compels Moses to ask rhetorically if he gave birth to the Israelites, requesting that God kill him if he has found favor in Yahweh's eyes because he is overwhelmed. Nothing about this desire seems sarcastic or insincere. The text presents Moses as if he truly hoped for God to kill him, and nothing in this narrative condemns him for it. God's response is to have Moses alleviate some of his burdens by sharing his responsibilities with 70 elders of Israel. Yahweh does not kill him, but neither does he chastise him for wanting it to happen. Then he promises to give the complaining Israelites nothing but meat for a whole month so that they will be sick of it (Numbers 11:18-20).
Job also wants to die in the midst of his great suffering. Refusing to curse God and die as his wife encouraged (Job 2:9-10), he still wants his life to end, and not for the reason many pseudo-Christians might relate to if their trials reach a certain intensity. No, he does not expect a heavenly afterlife to immediately be his! He curses the day of his birth (3:1-10) and longs for the absence of experience in Sheol, where the righteous and wicked, the rich and poor, sleep in the peaceful absence of experience (Job 3:11-19). The author of Ecclesiastes later concurs that the dead know, feel, and do nothing at all (Ecclesiastes 9:5-10). If this unperceiving "sleep" of the soul is what awaits us after we die until the resurrection (Daniel 12:2), why would anyone who suffers not want to leap straight into relief from terrestrial pain?
Of course, that key Biblical figures did or did not do something in narratives is not what demonstrates that a thing is good, evil, or permissible on the Christian worldview if the narrative itself does not directly address this in some way; that is accomplished by Mosaic Law and other explicitly, strictly morally prescriptive parts of the Bible. There nonetheless is a way to accelerate one's arrival to the experiential nothingness (this is different from nothing at all existing, which is logically impossible [1]) of Sheol. Do any of God's statements condemn suicide directly or indirectly? "Do not murder" from Exodus 20:13 and Deuteronomy 5:17 does, for it addresses all people and does not limit its scope to the murder of other people alone. While Exodus 21:12-14, 20-21, Numbers 35:30-31, and so on address one person intentionally and wrongfully killing another, which is indeed worse than suicide since it is done to someone other than oneself, the wording of murder's prohibition in the Decalogue does have a broader applicability in one sense.
Self-murder is still murder, albeit of a different kind. At the same time, wanting to die is no sin. This desire could be purely involuntary, first of all, which means no person could be in the wrong on the level of ideological stupidity or moral guilt for just finding their own death appealing or genuinely wishing they were dead, even going as far as begging God for release from life as Moses does in Numbers 11. Someone cannot possibly be in logical and moral error for experiencing a mere feeling that does not change their rationality, worldview, or willingness to do what is obligatory. Moses and Job hope to die in the respective passages examined. In those passages and others, God never condemns wanting to die.
Whether it is to escape what can be relentless, incredible misery in this life or to decrease one's conscious waiting time until the true Biblical afterlives [2]--for the dead only sleep until their resurrection and thus the actual amount of time until then does not diminish with their death, though the dead cannot experience anything before then--hoping to die and praying to die is not problematic on its own. Allowing this to deter one from fulfilling obligations, like that of enacting real justice in all of its Biblical forms (Deuteronomy 16:20) or abstaining from murder of oneself and others, would be sinful. Pretending like it is justification to stop believing things on the basis of logical necessity, such as if it seems like rationality takes "too much effort" or is personally inconvenient, is irrational. Wanting to die? This itself can be rational in some ways (to live is to have the capacity for pain [3], so to wish for death on grounds of avoiding pain is absolutely rational), and it cannot be immoral left to itself.
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